So, I met a boy. We'll call him Captain. And I've kinda fallen for him. Which sucks ass. He told me he's never connected with anyone like he has with me. And I've been kind of giddy until today when I realized that I'm just fooling myself. My life is NOT a fairy tale where I meet the perfect guy and we work through the long distance thing and I actually have a decent relationship for once, so I don't know why I insist on believing that will happen. It's not like I won't try. I just don't have a lot of faith in the future.